Half of My Heart.

Half of my heart's got a grip on the situation

Half of my heart takes time

Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you

That I can't keep loving you

with half of my heart.



Half of my heart's got a real good imagination

Half of my heart's got you

Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you

That half of my heart won't do.
サヨナラ、
ホントウニゴメン。

In Theory.

I always say these things, these theories

I sound so wise, but see, these eyes are crying

It doesn't take too much to make yourself sound rational

But there are things that simple words cannot control

Whenever I run, I'm bound up and shackled

By a sovereign mind

Whenever I'm lost, it's my own intention

And I'm left behind

When I was a child, my future was nothing

But a game I played

But that time is here and things aren't pretend now

I'm learning how

I've seen it end

And I've seen a friend go by

No monsters were here, 

but I know real fear

And what it is to cry

Reach out for 

Can't you see I can't sleep 

and I'm calling

For 

Another dream like such.

Skin Shed.

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
of running around
And pulling on your threads and
Breaking yourself up.


If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart
 then face it.


And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling


Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold.

Between.

てとてを放す。

How do you measure

the amount of fate

that lies between 

any pair of two

? 

Yards

Probability

Broken Strings

?

Evidently,

our fate has already ended there. 

残念だったかも。

I try.

言いたくて、でも言いたくない。

Games, changes, fears

Where will they go from here

When will they stop

Perhaps faith has brought us here

I play it off but I can't dream 

I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning 

Goodbye and I choke

Walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it, it's clear

The world crumbles when you're not near.

It'll seem alright and smile when you leave, 

but my smiles are just a front. 

Here's my confession. 

Systematic uncertainty.

ただいま。

I'm home,
to this unofficial familiar home.


This time it feels rather different. 


This is unusual
Having more than enough time to spare.
And additional things to worry about. 




Guess I've always been a DIY sort of person
don't run in packs or groupies
I like being a floor ghost, a drifter.






It's a little selfish keeping quality time solely to myself
but then again are there suitable minds to share with
?

10 million fireflies light up my lovely city.

Too much uncertainty at the moment
it's making me feel very uneasy.


Montreal
Visual Arts waiting-list
Work 
Distance




Definitely not helping my Precision OCD Disorder. 








I blame Vancouver's weather 
for causing periodic emotional inflict on me.

Two Thousand and Eleven Years.

皆さん
新年あけましておめでとうございました。
ことしもよろしく。

New years 
new places
new starts new faces. 




This break was rather subtle,
so was new year's eve. 




As for new year resolutions
...
I'm going to grow a sunflower field
!!!!!!
Aha, jokes.




I'd like to be a giddy little girl everyday.
(But not the ones that makes you want to strangle innocent puppies)

また、ね？

Argh,
too many 
people are leaving me behind! 




Feels like Abandonmarzie Fest
I'm not good with goodbyes,
even if they are temporary. 






BYE MAMA. 
Now I'm officially famless.
(family-less)






HELLO SCHOOL again!
I've never been this happy in a breakup in my 18 years of life. 
Biology, we had a memorable 3 years together
but now it's time for us to bid farewell
and continue our lives in separate paths. 
That is all.